I just wanna be a kid

 so a couple weeks ago, I officially walked across the stage and left my high school days behind. forever. and I am definitely not going back.  to celebrate, three of my friends and I went to one of my friend's aunt's lake house.  guys, lakes are so underrated!  still water, no sharks, and piers to jump off of -- it's pretty dope.

basically, we spent the few days we had together being kids again.  ironic right?  for the past four years of high school, we wanted to skip to the end where we went into the real world and started being respectable human beings, and here we were going 10 years back to when we played board games instead of our smartphones, colored picture books, swam as far as we could instead of laying out to tan, pranked each other, ate giant bowls of ice cream without worrying about getting fat, ran in the rain, sang along to old Disney movies, and didn't care what the world thought.  if growing up is about losing all these simple things that make us smile like idiots and induce our giddiness, I don't think I ever will.

but coming back home to normal life, I bounced back into bad habits pretty fast.  I woke up at noon today and KID YOU NOT I spent 5 hours on social media!!  every once in awhile I do that, and I feel like absolute crap afterwards.  it sucks!  i don't know why I do this to myself.  so I've decided to go on a social media cleanse, and you should totally join me.  this isn't a once and done thing though . . . you've been warned.  this is about real change and life improvement.  I'm going to limit myself to 10 minutes of social media per day.  OMG WHY THAT'S SO SHORT!!  because, i realized that every time I've been forced to not use social media for long periods of time, I have felt so much happier. it's refreshing I guess.  I still have enough time to connect with people over Insta as much as I usually do, but it makes those real life moments so much more powerful.  

growing up isn't about resorting to a boring life of obligations; it's about learning what you value in life.  it's about making decisions based on what is best for you, because honestly the people you waste time with over social media will never know you as much as the people you surround yourself with in person.  those face to face moments are what matter.  I saw something today that said, "a million likes will never matter if you don't like yourself."  this is so true.  sometimes I get caught up in the mindset of 'wow I should post this or do this because people will be so impressed' but IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT PEOPLE THINK.  you BE YOU.  when you are in love with yourself and when you are in love with your life, that's what success is.  that's what it's supposed to be like when you finally grow up.