it's a strange time

Woooooo!!!!! I'm officially an adult! The lit sunset pic above was from my last night as a child contemplating life in the empty quad. Good times. This was also the night when I realized I really have no idea where my life is going, and I'm honestly not distraught about it. 

So you're probably wondering, what exciting things did this spunky teen do to ring in her adulthood??? Nothing special. I hate birthdays. Well . . . my birthday. I've always thought they were overhyped. I'd be more surprised if someone with my resources and life exposures didn't live to be an adult. There would be a reason to consider it special. Nonetheless I did exercise my legal rights by registering to vote, getting a WA driver's license, dancing my first waltz with strangers, and buying things that only adults can buy. Kind of sad story but I've had a cold for the past week and I was so PUMPED to buy OTC meds. I walked into CVS and strutted to the counter with NyQuil in one hand an my ID in the other. I was so ready - and the dude didn't even check my ID. The anticlimax was ego-shattering. BUT IT'S OKAY THOUGH. I went to the smoke shop next door and bought myself a cute little blue lighter and some Marlboros to go with it. 

A did a little reflecting too. Which happens very often. Two things happened in close proximity (I saw a group of people headed to a party and UniteUW asked us all to prepare a 4 minute story about something interesting about us/our lives), and for a split second when these things happened I thought to myself I'm not very interesting; I'm kind of boring. Sometimes I have major FOMO and I think less of myself because the experiences I have had in my life thus far are much different than the people around me. I'm not typical. I'll never marry a high school sweetheart, I'll never be the easy girl at the party, I'll never get everyone to know my name. And I'm okay with that! But make no mistake: I'll be the one who marries a wonderful man who worthily takes me to the temple, I'll the most hyped and sober person at the club, I'll make sure that everyone that I value feels valued. So I traded the popular crowd for a group of friends I'll keep around forever, I traded a boyfriend for complete freedom to roam, I traded the typical high school experience for a journey to find faith, but most of all I traded caring what people think for falling in love with my life. Honey, I'm not looking back.